Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Don't read, just me whining is all...

Do you ever feel like your best will never be enough? That you'll never be good enough? That you are fat, ugly, and undesirable? Unlovable? That you're broken, ruined, and you'll never be any better? That things will never get any better? Well, this is how I feel right now...only getting 2 hours of sleep in the last 60 hrs probably has something to do with this, but it's still how I feel...


I look back to who I used to be, how I used to look, what my life used to be, and wonder how things ever got this bad. And how the fuck do I make it better again?

I got one of my weird feelings again...like something's gonna happen...it's not a bad feeling, just a weird feeling...and my feelings are always right. Something always does happen when I get these feelings, n not in a smart-ass way...something significant-borderline life-changing, if not entirely life-changing...and because of this, I just can't seem to fall asleep...

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